Friends?

I wonder some days what a true friend is. Am I a true friend? I feel like I have some work to do. This makes me a little sad. I always have loved my friends but I have this issue that I am horrible at keeping up with them! I need to change this, but how? When I get home from work all I want to do is veg and spend time with the family. I know I need to call or text more.

Then there are the time that I do reach out and get no response. Have I waited to long? How do I know this person still wants to talk to me? Just another one of my self conscious thoughts. Even if I have been some ones friend for a long time, sometimes I just shut down when I see them. I love being who I am except for this part of me. What kind of friend doesn't talk to another friend when they see eachother. I don't know why I do this. Is it my mentality of thinking that I'm not good enough?

This all stems from my depression I guess. Thank God for antidepressants, because I would REALLY be a hermit I think. My hubby is always telling me to get out, go see my friends. Its so hard to do that though.

So to anyone reading this, thanks for caring enough to do so. Please don't give up on me. I am trying to get better at this!!!