Being a parent/sister

So, a couple of years ago my husbands father passed away. He left my hubby and his brother (both in their 30s) and a little girl who was 14 at the time. She is of course their sister....and mine now through marriage. My husband nad I tried to take over the bi weekly visits that she had had with her dad. Mainly to try to keep consistancy in her life, but also seflishly so that we could spend time with her and she could see the family. Well she turned 15 and things starting getting crazy as they normally do with teenaged girls. Then she started talking to older men, lost her virginity to someone that she had dated for a month, and started sneaking out of her mom's house. This year her step father died. She got her drivers license. And had CHANGED immensly! Lying to everyone, breaking promises. Well, I finally informed her mother of a few things that I knew had been going on. I was trying to be a friend, and finally realized...NO when she is around I have to be a PARENT! I will always be my kids' friends (In fact my 17 year old's friends say we are pretty awesome), but I will always ensure they are safe....ALWAYS!

ME

Isn't it sad....I just realized at the age of 32 that I am no longer under the parental control of my parents. I can do what I want!! When I was younger, I got my belly button pierced-that was my rebellion. Even though I loved it, I felt ashamed. I still have it too. When I moved out at 18 I still felt like I needed everything to be ok with my parents. The next rebellion came when I was 21 and I moved in with my boyfriend....very against my parents belief. Not mine though. That was a hard thing to do...tell my parents that at 21 I was doing womething that they were not ok with. I felt bad. I married that man by the way and we have been married for 8 years. I have since gotten 2 more piercings and am heading in for another one and a tattoo next week. My point with this is that I have been afraid to be myself. I didn't know 100% who ME was....until just recently. It took me 32 years to realize that my parents don't need to approve of anything I do as long as I feel it's what I want to do. It's my conversation with the Man upstairs that will matter in the end. Not if my parents made my decisions my whole life. I just want to be me. I've been a mom for 12 years and am just now getting used to that part of me. I love it! I have been a wife for 8 years (live in gf/wife for 3 before that.) I love it! I have a dog and a bluegill. I have a house. I have my life. MINE. Its exciting when you finally realize that it's your life. Of course, I'm still goona do somethings to please the fam. I do love spending time with them. And I don't get to see them as much as I should. But my life is mine, I have finally realized that I have been raised now it's my turn to raise mine!

?DUH

So sick and tired of hearing all the caterwalling. All the argueing. All the "Did you hear"s. Time to turn off my ears to everything that is not important and turn them on to life. REAL life. My life.Take what I KNOW and use it, not what I hear. I grew up about 15 years ago, when I graduated high school and realized that everything in life was not about me. When I realized that people do have real feelings. That whispers are whispered so no one can hear them. Well, I'm done whispering. I'm going to start yelling because if what I have to say can't be yelled then I shouldn't say it!

Hope

It has now been a few weeks
I had hoped we would speak
I had prayed you would see
I did what I did for your safety
I told what I told for your good
I gave up our trust to keep you
I  miss you.
Will you ever forgive
Will you ever let me in
Did I ruin our friendship
Probably, but I did what was right.
I did what was needed
to keep you from harm

Sleep Well

When the tough gets giong....shut the door behind him! And then triple lock it and put a chair in front of it. Then make sure you run around the house locking the windows. Close the shades too because then he can't stare at you looking like a sad puppy dog. Don't worry, it will be ok. Everything turns out fine. Its the way it should be. Just remember to disable the doorbell before shutting off the light. You will sleep extremely well tonight!

Huh?

What out of this makes sense? Entry level position, do not apply unless you have experience. Experience a plus.....Ok, entry level usually means that you have some idea of what the job entails but not how to do the job. It means you will be taught. At least that's what I thought. Do not apply unless you have experience.....so wouldn't that mean that it is NOT an entry level job. Experience a plus....so you want me to not know but know how to do the job!! I have a bachelors degree and these kinds of postings confuse me. What the heck do they want? A newbie or an oldie? If you write help wanted ads....please be more clear because that one is not!!! Does one apply for this job if they have no experience? Does one pass it by? Why are companies so stupid! My guess would be that they probably have no idea what the heck they are looking for! I'm glad I have my job, but for those still looking.....not sure that the position will be filled...or maybe it will with an unexperienced, experienced know it all, who doesn't know it all......

Us

When we started out, we were lovers, we were lusting for eachother. As time passed, we became friends. Then, when the time was right, we were husband and wife. My life with you couldn't be any better. I tell you daily that I wouldn't want anyone else. You are my best friend. You are my reason to get up in the morning. You are my life, my world. No one could ever understand what we have. We are not perfect, but we are perfect together. We are not rich, but we are rich with love. We are not special, but we are special together. Together we make eachother better people. Together we make life better. In my eyes, there is no one that could take your place. I am not me when you are not with me. I feel alone, when you are not here. You are my strength, my protector, my friend, my lover. You are a part of me that I cannot live without. I love you, forever and always. You're my best friend.