ME

Isn't it sad....I just realized at the age of 32 that I am no longer under the parental control of my parents. I can do what I want!! When I was younger, I got my belly button pierced-that was my rebellion. Even though I loved it, I felt ashamed. I still have it too. When I moved out at 18 I still felt like I needed everything to be ok with my parents. The next rebellion came when I was 21 and I moved in with my boyfriend....very against my parents belief. Not mine though. That was a hard thing to do...tell my parents that at 21 I was doing womething that they were not ok with. I felt bad. I married that man by the way and we have been married for 8 years. I have since gotten 2 more piercings and am heading in for another one and a tattoo next week. My point with this is that I have been afraid to be myself. I didn't know 100% who ME was....until just recently. It took me 32 years to realize that my parents don't need to approve of anything I do as long as I feel it's what I want to do. It's my conversation with the Man upstairs that will matter in the end. Not if my parents made my decisions my whole life. I just want to be me. I've been a mom for 12 years and am just now getting used to that part of me. I love it! I have been a wife for 8 years (live in gf/wife for 3 before that.) I love it! I have a dog and a bluegill. I have a house. I have my life. MINE. Its exciting when you finally realize that it's your life. Of course, I'm still goona do somethings to please the fam. I do love spending time with them. And I don't get to see them as much as I should. But my life is mine, I have finally realized that I have been raised now it's my turn to raise mine!